I would make love to you in the sweetest, most enticing way because I deeply believe you deserve to be made love to like no other. I hope you remain soft, I hope you have the strength to. I say this even though I know you will. You have always remained selfless, you have always remained kind, somehow. I do not understand how someone can turn such pain into beauty. Your creations are just as beautiful as you are, that is so admirable. You shock people with such generosity, you are completely, utterly and naturally divine to the point you are unhealthly wanted by every pair of eyes, even the blind. I swear its like the blind regain their sight in your presence. People notice you in a crowd, don’t doubt that. People especially notice you when you think you are not being noticed. You are the most beautiful conscious being and that will never change. You have angel lips as sweet as honey, your voice is melodic. I have always ached and dreamed for you to love me. Please one day love someone like me. Your being is so lovely that I can’t help myself from hopelessly weeping. You are a walking art piece, a priceless masterpiece. I lost everything the first time I looked in your eyes. I lost everything.
Ok so if you watch Grey’s Anatomy you’ll probably remember the episode where the guy (Rick) was skydiving and his chute didn’t open and in the end only ended up only needing and appendectomy. If you watch the whole episode you’ll also remember the part where the interns manage to get the video and Rick is confessing his love to Sally (the skydiving instructor). When Meredith is treating Rick they have a conversation of their near death experiences. In sum, Meredith asks Rick if he’s gonna be the fool who only confesses the love he has towards Sally via skydive cam or tell her in person.
Now, I’m currently stuck in the situation where I am Rick, except I didn’t jump 12,000 feet off of a plane.
Imagine you are Rick, and the person you love, or at least you think you do, is within your reach.
Would you pursue the relationship, or simply let fate handle these things on its own?
Personally, I don’t like to confront others about my feelings because I feel too vulnerable and raw, oh, and I’m also terrified of rejection. Idk it makes me question myself.
Honestly I’m everywhere in this post, but my main question is, would I feel better knowing I’ve at least accomplished the task of trying to connect with this human, or simply letting my thoughts in my head get to me and never know if this person feels/doesn’t feel the same way.
(there’s one obvious answer, but it the emotional distress it’ll cause worth it tho?)
My future has been on mind my lately. Which obviously brings up probably the most stressful question there is: “What do I want to be when I grow up”. As a person who is 99.9% anxiety, this question makes me feel like the most insecure person on planet earth. When I hear people answer this question so firmly, I ask myself “wH a t TH e F uCk”. How can someone so young know that this is the one thing that they want to do? How do they know this? What is the secret?
Me personally, I think I have experienced about 6.6% of the world around me. Yes, I’ve been given the opportunity of being able to experience great things that have opened my eyes, but not the kind of things that make me realize what I want to do for the rest of my life.
The thing is with me is that in so ding dong doodly indecisive, and mostly a perfectionist, but only with things that I enjoy so miss me with “that your grades are bad”shit, I also am deeply influenced by the people around me (and I mean influenced in the way that the people who are around me make me think about my possible outcomes in life, so idk if “influenced” is the correct word. #SorryI’mNotUpToYourVocabularyDefentionStandards). Mostly being made up of these few attributes fucking sucks because:
- Who likes an indecisive ass bitch?
- Perfectionism can be deadly
- Most of the people I’m surrounded by aren’t exactly successful at life (But I still love you guys)
So basically I’m fucked.
But I don’t think I’ll worry too much about this subject in a few years, because by then I would have already chosen what I wanted to do, or died. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.
I’d figure I’d take a small break after exposing myself. But I’m back and better than ever honestly. Not to brag but I’ve received a lot of great news during the past few days. I feel genuinely happy, I’m mean I’m always happy but now I’m blissful as fuck. There are a couple of things that need improvement in my life, but they’re easy fixes.
The other day I went to the store to get some supplies for a project I’m doing, and it’s gonna be really fun I think. I think I’ll display it on here after I’m done.
But yeah, I mean wow. Life is truly going in the direction I’ve been wanting to steer it in for the past 3 years. I can’t wait to show you guys what I’m doing!! Life is good!!!1! Be nice (bc I’ll at least try to be from now on )!1!!
(I got a surprise for you Alex, just wait till June :~). )
SOOOOOO, I’ve currently been in Thailand for 3 months. (GETONMYLEVEL) And am about go back to my home country. *go Slovakians!!* jk. but i am about to go back and see all the new crackheads on my block. I’ve learned heckka stuff out here. Likeeee. how to clean my self. and stuff like that you know. 😉 [ON A SERIOUS NOTE] I am a woman in progress. I’m just trying like everyone else. I try to take every conflict, every experience, and learn from it. Life is never dull. -oprah winfrey. ( Ha you thought!) but yea I’ve been inspired out here and hopefully one day I’ll be making bank like Oprah ! *GOODNIGHT & DRIVE SAFELY KIDS
Hello, sadly in this blog I will talk about the most disgusting thing known to human kind. Its name is Alejandra Cueva. She typically eats ass on the daily. Her fetishes include feet, and ashy elbows. Unlike normal people, she showers monthly. Her typical smell consists and rotten toe jam. Her hair is rather dry and…just kidding. She’s actually a really nice person who happens to be a great friend. She’s a Libra, and she’s into that zodiac stuff so we always look @ it on tumblr. She’s really sarcastic, a veces I cant even tell if shes’s playing or no. This girl got jokes for daysss. She’s high-key slow and isn’t good at hearing. But I mean I guess I’ll enlighten her with my friendship. Hopefully my brains rub off, because god knows she needs it. LMAOOOO SIKE ! That girl is beyond smart, she’s just lazy and not devoted to work whatsoever You can catch her watching “Riverdale” as prescribed by me, during class. Speaking of which, I also recommend that for you, for your own enjoyment and pleasure, why you ask? WEll becuase who wouldn’t like a cutie like Cole Sprouse on their personal screen?
Anyways, I wrote this for my friend Alejandra, sorry I’m not good with words and couldn’t give a proper interpretation of your true self, I honestly don’t know what prompted you to think that I could do this. But jes amiga, keep doin you.
Hola! It’s currently 11:11 PM. Well about 10 minutes or so I was just chillin on my bed watching youtube tutorials, ya know the usual. When I hear a knock on my window. It was my cousin. She forgot to unlock the backdoor, me being the kind person I am, come to the rescue to let her inside.
~5 minutes pass~
I begin to hear squeaks outside my paper thin door, but I disregard it due to the fact that we have a bit of a mouse problem. It’s cool no big deal. A few seconds pass and the squeaks get louder. I’m just thinking to myself “Damn, that’s a big ass rat.” Moments later it hits me… Damnit Peasch.
A solid 8 minutes pass. Those must have been the longest 8 minutes of my life. A few seconds after those painfull 8 minutes, The door opens; shuts. And I’m just happy that I dont have to go another 8 minutes, hearing the “rat” squeak.
Moral of this post: Do not copulate when you have an antisocial teen in her room, who will post about your sex ruckus on her blog